Head meet desk.
What the hell is wrong with me? Honestly. Why can’t I just move past this shit? All I want is to be friendly. You’d think I’d have figured this out by now but no. The brain makes up all these situations and scenes. I know, I KNOW they mean absolutely nothing but it still sucks to have these misplaced feelings. It would be so much easier if I had a life or something. But...
I just watched Toast of London
And now I want more. It was a lovely mix of odd comedy, my favorite kind. I really hope more episodes get made. It definitely has promise. Also I think the Mister looks fantastic in glasses, not so much the hair though. That skunk stripe was a bit distracting. YES!
How is it that a 30 second conversation can do my head in? Really? Is that all it takes? Fuck. I need to get over this. I figured out over the vacation that if I am around others I don’t have time to focus on the shit that bothers me. Even my dreams were better. I guess that’s what I need. I need to be with others. Too bad my social skills are merely passable. Family can put...
Not looking so good.
Last night he said the most awful thing to me. “I’m not sure how much longer I will stay.” That statement makes my blood go cold. I don’t cope with change very well and the thought of losing a dear friend makes me sad. I know, I’ve always known, it’s just a matter of time before he leaves the Branch but it still doesn’t make hurt any less. Plus the...
Today I learned there is going to be a get together at the Elder’s home the same day I leave for vacation. I’m kind of bummed but I’m not sure why. Seems like it would be a drag, ya know? Work parties aren’t that fun. You can’t be yourself. It’s still work. :|