She's all right, I guess.
My current boss that is. I’m just not sure that she understands me, literally. Today I tried to explain something on the computer and it was like I was talking to my dog. Then there was a scheduling questing and that got me nowhere. It’s so odd. I don’t think I had this problem with other.
I really shouldn’t have had that last drink, it kicked my ass. I’m sitting here wishing I had a few more hours sleep but the organization needs me. So here I am dressed and ready to go. Please let this morning be easy on me.
Things I should have done today:
-Clean the bathroom -sort and store winter clothing -give dog a bath What I actually did: -build a Lego dinosaur -dress up and photograph my dolls -watch 3 hours of Top Gear Clearly I have my priorities in order.
Acid Jazz just tweeted that they are selling Matt’s tour ep. http://acidjazz.bigcartel.com/product/matt-berry-tour-ep-cd Not a bad price at 4.99 GBP (I can’t seem to get the special characters to work on my chromebook.)
She's been saved.
My doll Alice that is. I bought a ResinSoul Chun last fall to be the wife of my 72cm AngelsDoll Maxwell. Female dolls in that scale are rather scarce. It’s either Iplehouse or Dollmore for the most part. Anyway when I got her I was pleased with how they looked together but I just didn’t like her. Sure, she has a sweet face but eh. I think the biggest problem is dressing her. As...
thebluthcompany: First trailer for Arrested Development - Season 4! Oh my god. I cannot wait. eee. :D
Boredom is a hell of a thing. I’m currently stuck at my sister’s helping my mother watch them while she and her husband are away for the weekend. They are napping so I find myself with a bit of time on my hands so I bought a ukulele. Guitar Center is evil. They sent me a $20 gift card. I was just gonna buy a tuner but then I got browsing. I figured it would be easier to play...
Thank you for providing many lovely pictures of Mr. James May. I’ve spent a good half hour just wandering the tags of Top Gear and James. It’s so nice to know there are people out there who share the same love for the man and his work.
I’ve been making my way through Top Gear on netflix except I’ve discovered that in some of the later season they have edited things out. Season 10 is the worst, they have completely eliminated the news section from most of them. Then they skipped the first episode of season 9 (I’m watching them backwards) which is a special one ‘cause Richard returns after his big scary...
The new track. Love that photo. Smiling Matt...
Wasn’t able to get the new track up so...
Spotify just added new music from Matt Berry. Opium is up and a new track called Medicine. OMG. So excited.
I’ve thought about it bit more and I realize that I am hopelessly stuck on him. Rationally I know that it is a product of proximity. I also genuinely like being around him and I think he likes to be around me too. I mean as soon as he was free he was chatting me up about this and that. Still I know that the friendship is just that, a friendship. We will never be more than that which...
I wish I could figure this whole social thing out. I’m getting a rather lonely here but I’m lost when it comes to making friends. I seem to have forgotten how to do it. It’s all about having something in common right? I dunno. Sometimes I think my strange personality and hobbies hold me back. It’s hard for me to find common ground with people in Real Life. Oh sure,...
Feeling better yesterday so I decided to play with my newest doll Alexa. All the bits and pieces to make her whole came in last week and I finally sat down to install them. So far, if I’m honest, I hate her. She’s using the Leeke art body now and the resin match is off, really off. I thought it wouldn’t bother me but it does. I love the body and I love her but not...
I’d say a 6 today. I’m up and moving which is always good. I had a long chat with my mother yesterday and we decided insurance or not I need to get this health issue looked at. I’m sick of being in pain and getting little or no relief. This past week I’ve managed to do the bare minimum and it still killed me at the end of the day. I’d just like to wake up...
I want to give you a new nickname. I dunno why. Maybe so it will be like the story. Yeah…a little fantasy in the reality punch. Will it stick is the question. I’ve already started. You’ll see.
It’s strange how the same illness can make different people react. This week in addition to my neck acting up I was also hit with an intestinal issue. I think I got it from my nephew who was ill all weekend. My dad and my brother in law also got it. They ended up in bed for two days, I managed to pull myself together and go to work. Granted I was chugging pepto before and was only...
The word of the day is uncomfortable. A combination of several things has brought back the pain with vengeance. Let’s hope it’s a temporary thing. It’s awful hard to get any work done when you can hardly move.
One Last Post About Yesterday...
Sometimes I wonder how his brain works. When I got in he wanted to show one of the upcoming LotR Lego sets. It’s a pretty badass set, Tower of Orthanc. Anyway after drooling over it we continued with our duties and off color commentary on other subjects. Later in the afternoon he gets my attention and shows me an email he sent from his personal email last night. It had gotten caught by...
Random Thoughts from Today.
-I wanna touch that scar. Why do I want to touch that scar? -I hate picture books. -please stop ringing that bell. If I ever get the chance I’m smashing that fucker to bits. -You called me by my full name. That was weird. -Damn it feels good to talk about this with someone who understands what the hell I’m saying. -We have been swearing like sailors today. -I think you saw...
Also I just preordered the new album. I would be very sad if I missed getting the deluxe vinyl. I wonder if I’ll get the red or black version?
I feel…hm. I can quite put it into words. Nothing. I feel nothing today. It’s so strange to not care strongly one way or another. Motivation level is low too. It’s taking all I have to clean up and start dinner. I’m trying to assign a reason or factor for feeling like this. There is one thing but I think it’s just a stand in for the real issue.
Why is it that a man with long nails creeps me out? It’s a strange thing really. I see a lot of hands over the course of a workday and I’ve always get an odd feeling from a man with long nails. Something just seems off.
You know what I miss right now? Going to a doll meet. I was posting on one of my doll forum when I realized I hadn’t been to one in over two years. I used to love going when my friend lived in Albany but after he moved the group changed and I never felt welcome again. It became a terribly stressful thing for me so I stopped going. I think what I miss the most getting the chance to...
First night working with just Rainman. So far so good, I guess. It was busy but not terrible. The one thing I didn’t like was being alone at the desk. I had no one to chat with. Just me. And when I finished everything I needed to it got even lonelier. It sucks because this looks like it might be a regular thing.
I am trying really hard not to let this bad mood get to me. Really hard. I don’t want it to stick around. It doesn’t help in any shape or form. It just makes my life terrible. I want to be happy, even content. This fog of sadness doesn’t do anything productive. I just need to focus.
I’ve been thinking…[[MORE]] …which is never good. I’ve come to the conclusion that I will always be alone. Now you say, “Tea, that can’t possibly be true. There is someone out there for everyone.” Maybe but as I get older I realize what ever it is I need to attract that person I simply don’t have it. Physically I guess I’m okay....
Amazon just makes it too easy. I just went on a small shopping spree and bought four books, all related to Top Gear. Two directly related to the show and two written by commentator James May. God, there is just something so cluelessly charming about the man even if he does get a bit long winded. I know, I know. It’s very strange how this show has gotten under my skin. I’ve never...
Stick a fork in me...
…I’m done. Work was stupid busy. I’ll never understand that rush 15 minutes before close. I mean I get grabbing a few things then getting the hell out but complicated orders and questions? Nah, you get the fuck out. Come back when there is time to do this complicated research.
I’m trying my hardest not to let this bad mood get the best of me. Keeping busy helps and I’m not dwelling on stuff I said or should have said too much.
I’ve got that lonely feeling again. Not sure why. Maybe it’s the weather, I dunno. I just feel blah. It doesn’t help that my neck is bothering me again. Work is terrible when you can only move slowly or only carry a few things at a time. Speaking of work, the new new schedule kicks in next week. No more Wednesdays nights with PiC at least until July. It will be just me...
Whenever I am interested in something be it a show or a subject I go full force and learn everything I can about it. Right now it’s Top Gear. Yeah…I’m a little surprised myself. I started catching back episodes on on BBC America and it was instant love. Then I found out that the whole damn series in on netflix and now I can’t fall asleep without watching at least...
Last night I did not anger any co-workers. However it seems the whole organization got a slap on the wrist. Someone (I don’t believe they exist) apparently complained to out director saying that we were not using our resources effectively and that because of it the central office would no longer be sending any. What the hell. First of all the Complainant, we were told, does not work for...
I really want to bring the character Jackson from my story home in doll form. It’s driving me nuts because I know I won’t be able to afford another doll for a few months. Also I still need to get my dear Alice proper clothing. That is at the top of to-do list for dolls. And yet I keep looking. I even found a potential head. A minimee of an actor I’m not familiar with. He...
Can we go 5-5?
I’ve managed to piss off two co-workers in the last two weeks. Last week it was HP ‘cause I was nearly a half hour late. Totally deserved. Today it was Miss D because I had off handily mentioned her arrangement with annoying user. HP said she didn’t mention me but Miss D knew who it was. At first I thought she was angry at me because I was chatting with PiC but no it was...
Tonight I have decided that any alcohol that comes in a mason jar is probably pretty good. Also powerful.
I am still reeling from the other night. Those words spoken to me like that., so spontaneous And no, they were not bad words it just feels weird to hear them aloud from that one. I know they meant little more than face value but still it was a shock. I wish they were honestly true.