My brain is terrible. Guess who can now recall nearly entire episodes of Top Gear. Yeah, what a talent. -eyeroll- Plus it now puts me in the special category of weird where ladies aren’t supposed to be into such nonsense. And the conversation that followed just cemented it.
I can’t see anyone ever being attracted to such a weird train wreck.
Did an experiment last night which lead to me figuring I can drink a 1.5L of wine all by myself. As long as I don’t have anywhere to be the next morning. I feel like a slug.
Today he told me about a dull trip to the mall to return clothing and all I could think about is how nice it would be to have someone do those boring tasks with.
As I’ve said before, it would be so much easier to get rid of these feelings. I’m tired of the emptiness and longing. No one is coming to end it so why must I continue to feel like this? For a long time I believed that someone would appear in my life to show me differently but I know that is never gonna happen. I’m too old and too weird, a combo that never works out.
My current boss that is. I’m just not sure that she understands me, literally. Today I tried to explain something on the computer and it was like I was talking to my dog. Then there was a scheduling questing and that got me nowhere. It’s so odd. I don’t think I had this problem with other.
I really shouldn’t have had that last drink, it kicked my ass. I’m sitting here wishing I had a few more hours sleep but the organization needs me. So here I am dressed and ready to go. Please let this morning be easy on me.